The Torture Drip

After recently going for hypnosis and finding out some rather disturbing things about my childhood which I'd rather not discuss, I thought maybe my days of nightmares would finally come to an end. It was not to be. 2 days later I dreamed that I was in a big dark room with a whole lot of people lined up on chairs.  Each one of them had an IV drip put in. Each ones IV was filled with a certain type of torture method but they did not know what it was until the IVs kicked in. Once it did, some started shaking from electrocution, others had their nails pulled out of their fingers, others were raped.  This nightmare actually caused me to wet my bad and wake up. I have now come to a terribly difficult conclusion.  I have nightmare disorder and it's not going to go away.  So I should work on trying to accept it, rather than fight it so hard.  After homeopathy, an 8 grand poly sonogram sleep study, an EEG, an MRI of my brain, thyroid tests, 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital, countless sessions with a councellor and 4 different anti-depressants, muscle relaxants, benzodiazepines, anti-psychotics and anti-anxiolytics, it still has not gone away. Time to stop fighting and time to accept.