Hi there everyone
So I stopped blogging on here for a few years now because it all just became too much for me to keep re-hashing the dreams and what I was going through, with all the doctors and therapists and medications.
It's now 2022, 7 years since I last posted and am sorry to tell you that I am still in exactly the same position as I was before.
I've been diagnosed as Bipolar 2. That is my mood though, it doesn't affect my dreams.
What has happened in between? I was admitted to the psychiatric clinic again as I was taking 10 Zolpidems a night to sleep as hard as I could so I didn't remember the dreams. I knew that couldn't continue so I admitted myself. I also realised whilst I was there that I had been seeing the same psychiatrist for 7 years and she was at the point of recommending meditation and yoga to me. I could see she was out of ideas and didn't want to tell me because I was a cash cow to her.
I switched psychiatrists and my new one is amazing. Whilst he hasn't had any luck with my nightmares, he genuinely cares and sympathises with me. I have started Ketamine therapy which has been quite helpful and he finally diagnosed me with Bipolar 2, which explains a lot of how I feel during the day. It may not have helped my nightmares, but I at least take enough medication now to go to sleep without being able to force myself to stay awake.
Soooo that's my 7 year update. Nothing has changed.
Oh I did start a nightmare disorder support group on Facebook and its grown to just short of 900 members now. Not one has a cure. Not one. But the support is great. We also have a WhatsApp group where you can sound off right away if you wake up really upset. So that has helped me feel less alone in this because for a very long time I thought it was just me. Slowly going crazy.
Cheers for now.
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