Tuesday, 27 October 2015
It's been a while
So I haven't posted on here in ages. Quite a lot of reasons really. It got tiresome re-hashing my nightmares. I went through a massive career and life change. I sold my business. Yeah everything in life has changed so much. Oh, hmm well except for my nightmares. Nothing's changed there. In fact I'm sitting here now typing this through a quarter of an eye as I feel my head drooping but I fight the impending sleep with everything in me. But I have no fight left in me.
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Hi Mel. I can't figure out how to contact you so I will post my thoughts in a comment here. I have read your blog and find your situation very interesting. It's clear that these issues can't be being caused by a physical disorder or illness, based on all your tests and results being fine.
ReplyDeleteSomething that occurred to me is that your nightmares all have similar themes. They seem to go around torture or abuse, often involving children, animals, or vulnerable people - and very often while other people watch and do nothing (maybe because they can't).
To me it seems like your subconscious might be bringing up issues in a role shifting way, to make you able to think about the dreams, but without triggering a trauma? I'm sorry to be so forward but do you think there's any possibility that you experienced some abuse as a child (maybe at school, when you were very young?) that you maybe cannot remember or had to block out at the time?
I know this might come across as incredibly intrusive and it's not meant in any bad way. You seem like you really need a break and for this to stop, and I haven't seen you speak much on the subconscious and psychological side of things. These sorts of things are generally not physical in nature.
I can't explain why I have this feeling, but I do, and I really think it's worth looking in to. Professional help with this sort of things will also be a lot less expensive than all the doctors visits.