The Choice

Each night I have two decisions, exhaustion or hell.  Hell would be sleep, because that's what my nightmares are. And with sleep, the nightmares will come. Each night I make that decision but sadly I can't go through a night without sleep, so it always ends up back in hell. I guess I just decide how much hell I'm willing to go through, the trade off being exhausted the next day. I really feel like an early night tonight cos I have to be up early for a birthday thing tomorrow. So some extra hell I guess. Thinking I may set my alarm for 4am to knock off my REM sleep cycle. Oh the joys of having this I curable disease.